This story has been presented in a few other publications and sites.
I did want to bring it here as the web is a mercurial place where sites disappear as if by whimsy.
Thank-you for reading, I do hope you enjoy this turn on their meeting.
Be well-
Rusty
Exquisite Beauty
'There is no exquisite beauty, without some strangeness in the proportion…'
E.A.Poe
An alternative meeting for Vincent and Catherine
18,383 words
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1987
On
a rainy April evening after work Catherine Chandler hurried to the
street curb to claim whatever taxi she could. Her Father’s partner’s
son had driveled on about his boating weekend as she cleared her desk of
her mind-numbing day. She had completed a small Incorporation and a
friendly merger and it left her feeling dull. She had gone to law
school for this? Now she was bolting for an old book store as Dr. Peter
Alcott had invited her to a book signing and she was late.
The
cab slunk thru the rainy streets of this leviathan city and she
self-consciously picked lint from her wool skirt to keep from
impatiently tapping on the cab’s door sill.
“Thanks,
lady” the cab driver growled as she stabbed the bill into his stout
clammy hand and she made her break for the bookstore door. There within
the warm light she saw Peter peering into the dark rain for his God
Daughter.
“Finally, I
thought I was going to have to make apologies for you” Peter whispered
as he caught her elbow and before she could return the greeting he
whisked her through narrow rows of soaring bookshelves to a circle of
timeworn wooden chairs. Fragrant tea brewed on a table in the corner as
a professor type postured with his freshly unpacked books. The
intimate crowd sat enrapt in his recitation:
“And now at once, adventuresome, I send
My herald thought into a wilderness:
There let its trumpet blow, and quickly dress
My uncertain path with green, that I may speed
Easily onward, thorough flowers and weed.”[1]
My herald thought into a wilderness:
There let its trumpet blow, and quickly dress
My uncertain path with green, that I may speed
Easily onward, thorough flowers and weed.”[1]
“So
as I began studying Keats I realized he never attached much consequence
to his own studies in medicine, and indeed looked upon the medical
career as the career by which to live in a workaday world, without being
certain that he could keep up the strain of it. He nevertheless had a
consciousness of his own powers, and even of his own greatness, though
it might never be recognized.... Poetry was to his mind the zenith of
all his aspirations: the only thing worthy the attention of superior
minds: so he thought: all other pursuits were mean and tame” he tucked
his head to his chin, his hair curtaining his expression before he
raised his head and quipped, “I, on the other hand have no other
vocation, so I do hope you’ll consider buying my book and sharing it
message with your friends….but have them buy their own, OK?”
The
crowd chuckled as Evan closed his book and caught the end of the small
table with a muscular thigh. He was mid-thirties, all tweed and rough
leather, a head full of wild hair caught in a leather thong. Cathy’s
first thought was “where did they find him, Berkeley?” yet she fell into
the chair beside Peter and played the silent guest. She surveyed the
crowd’s response to this man’s reflections to Keats’ work and she became
lost in the eclectic group.
An
unassuming mature woman sat shyly, her graceful legs wrapped in a long
coarse woven skirt. She would occasionally smooth the tendrils of her
long graying hair back into the bun high on her head and when their eyes
met the woman seemed to blush girlishly, Cathy thought she was from
another era. Cathy found humor in the energetically animated man in the
baseball jacket, he hadn’t removed his hat and she was sure Peter would
have taken the dark haired man to task had the speaker not been in full
swing. The man winked at her rakishly and Cathy returned an
uncomfortable expression at his audacity.
Soon
she was lulled into a sense of repose with the Author’s husky voice;
silk had soothed his graveled words as he spoke about Keats with studied
reverence. She grinned at the thought of this man reading her to
sleep. She hadn’t had that pleasure since her Mother died. His large
hands cradled his book lovingly and she gave him the benefit of the
doubt that he knew his subject, it simply was too much for her to
digest. She was ready for a bath and a snack; it had been a mistake to
come out after work tonight.
“Cathy”
Peter woke her from her minds wandering, “I’d like to introduce Dr.
Evan Winterberg” Then he stepped back for Evan to catch her hand gently.
“Peter,
you didn’t say your guest would be this lovely” Evan pronounced gently
as he kept her hand in both of his. Now she felt the calloused surface
of an outdoorsman and she was fascinated by the combination of poetry
and physicality. “I’m sorry Cathy, I was at my cabin last weekend and my
hands took the brunt of my catharsis – too much wood chopping” he
dropped her hands as he felt her soft, unworked hands melt within his.
“I
was afraid my hands might be chilled from my ride over” she covered as
she smiled self-consciously. “I’m sorry I was late, work got in the way”
she shrank back closer to Peter as it seemed Evan was looming closer to
her. Cathy felt the group become eager to share this space and the air
grew thick with his magnetism. With her receding into the group the
others stepped up to shake hands and make the innocuous fan/author small
talk so common at these events.
Cathy
circled the perimeter, heading for the refreshment table “No coffee?”
she silently winced, wishing for a caffeine kick, “They generally serve
tea, you know it can have more caffeine than coffee?” the guy in a NY
Mets baseball cap held out a steaming china mug.
“That’s
OK, I know a place I can grab some coffee” Cathy stood back, clutching
her small purse before her as she moved to mill about the bookstore.
Peter had mentioned this dinosaur of a store as his favorite retreat
since his daughter had married and moved west. He came for the
selection and stayed for the comradery. Instead of a library style
silence, classical music played in the background, the china mugs
hanging on a mug tree bore names of the regulars.
She
felt welcome on her first visit, welcome enough to wander back into
where the bookshelves covered two floors. As Cathy wandered the narrow
aisles she felt as if eyes followed her and this caused her to step into
pursuit. She drew in the pervading scents of leather and old parchment
then there was a swift shadow with the trace of saddle soap and an
earthy musk.
Who was
the shadow she missed as she made each turn, what was the sweep of
fabric she heard, was it corduroy? As she mounted the steps to the
second floor she heard the gentle creak of old brass hinges and a turn
of a lock. She came to a door marked “NO EXIT” and bewildered she
grasped the brass door knob feeling it warmed by someone’s recent use.
The scent of candle-wax and saddle soap ended there and she pivoted as
she heard footsteps behind her.
“You
thought you saw someone didn’t you?” There he was again, the guy with
the quizzical wink. “This bookstore is haunted, but he only shows
himself if he’s interested in you”. He offered his hand, “Kristopher
Gentian, Itinerant Artist at your service”
“Cathy
Chandler, under challenged attorney” she quipped offering her best
business handshake at arm’s length. Had she unknowingly worn Musk
perfume today? Did it seem every guy was taking special interest in
her? She backed away from Gentian and headed back downstairs without
concern for her new friend.
As
she stepped from the stair case she heard Peter call, “Cathy, we’re
thinking about going for dessert, would you join us?” Peter asked as
they watched the crowd offer books for Evan’s signature.
With
a jovial whisper, “Who is “we”, Peter? Is this one of you and Daddy’s fix-ups?” Cathy sardonically grinned, she was approaching 31 and
unmarried, not that Charles Chandler hadn’t put her in front of enough
eligible men.
“Caught
me, you’re too smart” Peter smirked, “You could go for coffee, it’s not a
date” he stood guilty as charged. “Evan is a hell of a guy, I knew his
father in college”
“Great,
Peter, now our pedigrees are matched so the games begin?” she smoothed
back her hair and thought about slinging her scarf around her neck to
take her leave, then she heard footsteps again, the same swish of
corduroy and muted voices, two different men. Her curiosity was teeming
inside her at this phantom guest. Yet all she saw was a glimpse of the
Artist upstairs.
“Peter,
Mary and I are heading home” the gracious older gent leaned on an
ornate cane, that mild looking grey haired woman on his arm. They were
pair for sure Cathy surmised by their symbiotic posture and their
temperate eyes for each other.
“Oh,
Jacob, I want you to meet Catherine Chandler” ah, Cathy thought, Peter
had pulled out her full name; these people were old friends for sure.
“Dr. Jacob Wells, Mary Reynolds, this is Charles Chandler’s daughter”
“Do you know Daddy?” Cathy leaned into Dr. Wells’ embrace and caught the scent of moth balls and Earl Grey Tea.
“Your Father did some work for us years ago” Jacob offered, then stepped back to Mary’s side.
“I
doubt he’d even remember us” Mary volunteered quietly as she gathered
her wrap around her slim shoulders. “It’s lovely to meet you, dear” the
woman’s smile was heartfelt and earnest.
“Any
way, Peter, Catherine, we wanted to make our good nights – good to see
you, nice to meet you” they nodded and made their way thru the tight
crowd.
Immediately
Peter was in front of Cathy, “The crowd is thinning, time to make a
break for that cup of coffee – I know there’s a crème brulee with your
name on it” As the crowd was dispersing she hadn’t heard the bell on the
door that many times. Was she enveloped in some fantasy world tonight?
She really had to get some rest this weekend!
“I’ve
got to take a rain check, it’s a work night and Daddy’s been brutal”
she fibbed as she slid her hands into her gloves and caught her scarf to
her head.
“At least let’s share a cab” Peter offered eagerly.
“No,
you go out with Dr. Winterberg, surely you can cook up a better setup
than this” she motioned at the old book store and hugged him before
making her exit.
“Peter,
you couldn’t hold her until I was done?” Evan exclaimed glibly as he
watched her hail the first cab in the bright lights of the big city.
“Evan,
you’ll have to use some of that old poet’s charm of yours. You know
where to reach her” Peter grinned at the son of the Tunnels turned
literary master and passed him Cathy’s business card.
“Well,
since I can’t weave my way into Miss Chandler’s heart I guess I’ll head
Below since I have to leave in a couple of days” Evan seemed resigned.
Evan’s
parents had begun their romance in college, then as Evan Sr. moved thru
medical school their lives complicated. The young Doctor’s first real
diagnosis had been on his wife – High Blood Pressure. Then Evan Sr.
traded his wife for a son when Siri died within hours of her son’s
birth. Devastated, Evan Sr. grew closer to Peter and eventually built a
small medical practice while his son Evan spent his days Below. It had
seemed that Evan Jr’s life would be conflicted living Above and Below
yet the fates had their way. The Doctor became the sudden patient when a
heart attack claimed Evan Sr. in his 40’s.
Evan
had grown up alongside Vincent; they had played together as children.
Evan had grown his hair long as a brother in arms when the kids had
picked on Vincent for his hairstyle as one of his glaring differences.
Now, living above he wore it as a badge of individuality. His deep
auburn hair fell in waves below his shoulders, fettered by the leather
thong that he now pulled out to shake his hair free. “I’ll see you at
dinner, Friday?” Evan asked as he turned toward the threshold in the
back of the bookstore.
“Certainly,
dinner Below, Friday at 7!” Peter enthusiastically answered as he
picked up his purchases to check out and head home.
Cathy
Chandler rode home quizzically wondering about her evening. What great
cosmic force put her in front of so many men tonight? She shook her head
as she paid the fare and walked through her building’s grand doors; she
nodded to the night doorman and found solitary peace in her 18th floor apartment.
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Three
days later a kraft paper wrapped package arrived at her building, Jeff
the usual Porter was on vacation and Warren set it behind the desk, her
name obscured. It would sit there nearly a week before it was
discovered.
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Vincent
removed his cape and took anxious steps to Father’s chamber; tonight
Evan’s Tunnel family was celebrating his new book and tour. It would be
months before they’d have time to reminisce and he didn’t want to miss a
moment of the convivial evening. As Vincent entered the chamber the
buffet’s scent swirled invitingly, Father didn’t do this often yet the
current Tunnel population hadn’t remembered Evan and his family.
Tonight’s group would be intimate simply the inner circle of the
Tunnels: William, Mary, Winslow, Rebecca, Father and Peter would sit
down to break bread and celebrate Evan’s success.
“Vincent” Evan clasped his broad shoulders as they collided joyously.
“Like the little brother you always were” Vincent affectionately clapped a broad hand on Evan’s back.
“Just by a year” Evan countered, trying to pull his height past Vincent’s.
They
made chatter while William put the final touches to the chafing dishes
ready for their banquet. Father sat watching their animated
conversation and his ears strained when he heard a familiar name
dropped.
“Did you see
that Catherine Chandler?” Evan clapped back at Vincent’s arm as they
stepped toward the refreshments, “She is something.” Evan shook his head
as Vincent poured glasses of wine for everyone.
“She
almost saw me. I had to beat a retreat before she caught me. I thought
I’d hear your presentation and then hear some of the good words the
crowd had for you, Evan, I was wrong” Vincent shook his head at the
thought of being found lurking over the second floor railing.
“Anytime
you want to hear good words, recall all those you gave me while I
slogged thru college” Evan never forgot how Vincent shadowed Evan’s
collegiate studies. Vincent was an apt study partner. “So, what do you
think of Catherine?” Evan prodded, never one to let the subject of a
beautiful woman rest.
“You
have a knack for finding the beauties” Vincent concurred, raising his
glass to the group, “To Evan and his book tour” the subject of that
beauty was shuffled away in deference to a stellar meal.
While
they plowed through the groaning board of roast with smashed potatoes
and rich burgundy gravy Vincent thought about Catherine, how she had
perused the crowd as Evan spoke. She seemed to put a metaphorical
finger of each of them as she created the scenario for their being at
the soiree. Of course, Vincent mused that she had been wrong on all the
accounts, but he drew on her feelings as she had created back stories
for each of them present. He felt her racing heart as Evan recited
poetry and he detected that she was just a bit excited when Evan hands
wrapped around hers. He fought the desire to ever want this, as he knew
the insanity of such a desire.
Vincent
silently watched Evan as he discussed his itinerary; he satisfied his
memory with images of Catherine leaning against Peter, lost in Evan’s
words. Feeling that some thirsts would never be quenched he satisfied
his stomach with the crusty wheat rolls and rich honey butter, he
swallowed the green bean casserole without chewing as Evan and Peter
discussed Catherine Chandler’s single status.
He
barely tasted the 7 layer chocolate cake as they discussed Evan leaving
this Saturday. Together they had grown up and now they were two
lifelong friends, two men, or at least he felt he was almost a man. He
had played and studied with him, now as Evan stood at the threshold of a
worldwide career his world was contained within damp Tunnels and under
cover of darkness.
“Vincent?”
Evan waved at his vacant stare, “Are you with us? William, your cooking
is too good, you’ve lost Vincent in the frosting” he jested to William
with a flourish of his empty cake plate.
“Yes,
Evan…… I was reflecting on the other night” Vincent’s voice was
pensive, soft as Peter and Father watched with veiled interest.
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Evan
stuffed his duffel silently as Vincent watched, “Would you be cutting
your hair while you travel?” Vincent asked curiously “It’s not the style
unless you’re a troubadour” To Vincent their hair was their only
commonality now.
“Some
women really like it and since my jacket photo is like this I think I
need to, otherwise it’s like bait and switch, you know, where’s the guy with the
hair?” Evan spread his hands as in jest.
Vincent
nodded, recalling Catherine’s eyes as she took Evan’s appearance in.
Her eyes had traced Evan’s tweed clad shoulders and watched his brogan
shoe bob rhythmically as he perched on the corner of the table and
spoke. Would a woman ever watch him like that? Surely Rebecca did eye
him from time to time, but she was like a sister to him, he could no
more court her than Jamie. Vincent felt cast further into a lonely
darkness.
With the
next morning’s flurry of subway trains and pipe clamor Evan was gone, he
climbed into his VW bug parked at Peter’s brownstone and exited
Vincent’s world.
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Many
days later, on a Saturday, Jeff apologized; “Miss Chandler, I am sorry
for the delay in delivering this package” he stood at Catherine’s door.
It was the modest hour of 10am and Jeff assumed it would be a civil
hour for the delivery.
“I
wasn’t expecting anything, Jeff, just bring it in” She opened the door
on the sunny apartment as she pulled her hair into a ponytail to begin
her morning run in the park.
“Warren
set it behind the desk, it came earlier, no bill of lading though” Jeff
set it on the dinette table and made his exit. This was enough to
distract Cathy from her exercise regime; she carefully lifted the taped
corners of the kraft paper to reveal the back of an ornate gilded
frame. The signature in the lower corner read “K. Gentian” and to her
surprise, she was the subject.
The
portrait shone with romantic liveliness, a candid posture copied from a
recent newspaper society page. Cathy remembered the night, a Charity
event where she met the very eligible developer Elliott Burch. This
painting caught her alone with a gleaming smile, reacting to something
complimentary Elliott had whispered. She adored that red dress,
especially the purple and red jacket that warmed her from the chill in
that museum. “Mr. Gentian, I hope you aren’t looking for a check” she
shook her head at his impudent effort, ”Although, Daddy would probably
love it.” She concluded as she leaned the 24” x 36” portrait against the
mantel wall, then she grabbed her keys and left for her run.
Central
Park was teeming with children and their guardians. Prim looking Au
pairs pushed prams in pairs along the wide sidewalks while a few sat on
benches, their shoes cast aside as they meted out Cheerios to their
young charges. She didn’t feel a maternal pull at all as she paced past
the Carousel yet she did enjoy watching the graceful horses dance up
and down to the calliope music. She took time to check her heart rate
while she marked steps in place and thought about her Mother’s last
Carousel ride.
With a
fresh step she turned to head toward the Belvedere Castle, and there on
a bench was that women, Mary, watching children blowing soap bubbles
into the cool spring air. Would it be impolite to bolt past her in the
interest of maintaining her heart rate? Cathy cut behind her bench and
passed the passel of oddly dressed children. Cathy wondered if Mary was
the stage mother for a troupe for OLIVER!
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“Peter,
did you encourage Kristopher Gentian to paint my portrait?” Cathy held
her phone in the crook of her shoulder as she balanced and toed off her
running shoes. Cathy was perplexed as she was winded, “You didn’t see
that guy? He was the one that winked at me” Cathy played appalled for
Peter’s sake.
“I would wink at you my dear” was Peter’s pleasant answer before his honest retort, “Who’s Kristopher Who?”
“Oh,
you didn’t see that cheeky man in the baseball cap?” Cathy slid out of
her running shorts and regulated the shower controls.
“Before
you think him cheeky, could Evan call on you? You got away before he
could ask, we had dinner Friday night and- - -“Peter queried.
“Oh,
you men are relentless. Sure he can call me if he can catch me” Cathy
sought the relief of a steaming shower and politely cut Peter off,
“Peter, got to run, I’ll look out for his call but don’t encourage him,
OK? Got to go” and she pulled the wall plug on her phone before she
jumped into the shower.
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Sunday
evening, as Evan unpacked in the modest hotel he retrieved Catherine
Chandler’s phone number – she was worth a long distance call.
“This
is the Chandler residence, please leave a message at the tone” Cathy,
not expecting a phone call at 9:15 at night, was stretched out with a
file for tomorrow’s meeting. She awaited the message, would Evan really
call?
“Hello,
Catherine, this is Evan. Thanks for accepting my call…” Before the
machine began recording she found herself drawn to his voice, hot as a
slap she was across the room, the phone to her ear.
“Hello, Evan. . . . I was in the kitchen” and with that dialogue their three and a half hour conversation began.
He
was earthy and educated; he was wildly outdoorsy and refined. And she
remembered he had the fieriest golden eyes. A little before 1:00am she
rolled up from where she had lay on the floor in front of the fireplace
like a teen age girl chatting with Evan. “Evan, this has been fun, but
we have to get to bed” Cathy giggled.
“So,
soon, this is our first phone call and we’re going to bed?” His
resonate voice accentuated the last three words facetiously.
“You
know what I mean!” Cathy stammered as she pulled herself to stand and
circle the room to check the locks and power off the lights.
“I
do, I was impertinent to hold you up so late, I’m sleeping in to at
least nine tomorrow I didn’t even consider your eight to five schedule
will you forgive me?” Now the depth and resonance of his voice revealed
his sincerity. “May I call you Tuesday evening, I’ll be getting settled
in Baltimore for Wednesday’s signing” he was almost petitioning her.
“Since you’re so earnest, of course, I’ll be home after 7 or 8” Cathy felt 16 all over again.
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For
the following weeks, Evan and Catherine (as he called her) had marathon
telephone conversations, about his audience, the cities he visited,
about their dissimilar college years, everything except family. Her
refrigerator was covered with picturesque post cards extolling the best
views from Philly, Baltimore, DC, Norfolk, Charlotte and more cities
dotting the Eastern Seaboard. Besides their love of literature they had a
common bond, he claimed he had a one room cabin in the woods in
Delaware and she described her family’s place in Connecticut and he
laughed that the description of her kitchen was the size of his whole
cabin. Evan also recorded the copious quirks of the road in letters he
sent to Vincent; week by week he squeezed increasingly more anecdotes
about “Catherine”.
“Excited?”
Peter asked Cathy as they strolled through Central Park on July Sunday
afternoon. Evan was due back in New York on Wednesday.
“It’s
a work night, but we’re meeting for dinner. We haven’t even talked
about where he lives, you know what that means?” she bubbled at her
question, “I don’t want to say much around Daddy, he’ll have the
engagement party planned”
“Oh,
I wouldn’t say that” Peter shook his head as if to scoff off Charles’
interest in seeing Cathy “happy”, “And it’s take out because I know how
you cook” Peter retorted with a sideways glance, his lips purposefully
straight.
Cathy playfully slugged his bicep as they strolled near the Castle. “Cathy….”
“He
calls me Catherine” she romanticized as they came to a bench, “And we
will eat out because as much as we’ve talked, you know how I am about
having men over to the apartment”
“Honey,
Steven Bass is in a mental hospital, he’s not likely to get out. How
many sociopaths can one girl meet?” Peter fanned the copy of the Times
as they sat in the torpid summer sun.
“I
wish I had some caves to escape into, this heat has been brutal” She
popped off her flats and wiggled her toes as if it would evaporate their
perspiration.
Peter smiled at her comment, if Evan played his hand that might present itself.
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In
preparation for Evan’s return, Catherine stopped at the bookstore
Monday evening, the door pushed open with near silence of the clanging
bell and she found the front area empty. Taking cautious steps she
thought she heard Evan’s voice and her feet flew to follow his solid
huskiness. While her hasty steps carried her in that direction she
heard his voice silence as the proprietor rushed to meet her, “Miss
Chandler, what can I do for you?” his rotund frame nearly filled the
aisle as she tried to jockey around him, “What would you be rushing to?”
“Who,
Mr. Smythe, it would be who. I heard Evan’s voice and I wasn’t
expecting him back yet, I was just…” Catherine was held back by his arm
when his hands fell on the shelves.
“No,
that wasn’t Evan, the man I was speaking with, their voices are quite similar” he shook his head as
if it would convince her further. Above them Vincent concealed himself
in the shadows watching and hearing her enthusiasm he felt her joy at
thinking she heard Evan’s voice. Would any woman ever carry that joy in
her heart for him?
Catherine
balked at his insistence, “But I heard him” her brows knit in her
insistence as she backed away from Mr. Smythe’s imposing figure. “I
thought he was back early, he said he’d return Wednesday I was hoping he
was early” now crestfallen she clutched at her purse, thinking of the
elegant book mark she had seen here weeks ago, she had wanted it for his
“welcome home” gift.
“No
doubt Miss Chandler, Evan will be return on winged feet to you….on
Wednesday” Mr. Smythe processed the transaction for the bookmark and
Catherine swept the room, aching to hear Evan’s voice one more time
before she left the book store.
“What
do you think of that?” Mr. Smythe mused to Vincent after he pulled down
the shades and locked the front door. Vincent’s brows rose as he
shrugged, he simply had no words to share.
= = = = = = = = = =
Geographic
necessity had led Evan and Catherine to a telephone relationship, they
had done no more than shake hands the night they “met” and yet the hours
of soul-baring dialogue they felt breathtakingly close. Tuesday
evening his last words to her were, “I simply cannot wait to melt into
your arms for if your lips are as sweet as your words our time together
will be sublime”
At
his ardent intentions Catherine’s soul burned sweetly for him, for weeks
in her dreams she ran through a pine forest following his voice to find
him on a dock on a lake. In her dreams their affections burned to the
extent only their dropping into the placid lake cooled their “ardor”.
Catherine’s sleep was fitful, her heart hungry to feel his arms and lips
as she had been hearing his words. It had been years since she held
this kind of desire.
All
day Wednesday she felt his impatience at traveling back from Florida by
car. Then as she relocked her door and threw her purse onto the floor
she heard the trill of the phone.
“Cathy,
dear” Charles Chandler’s voice was heavy and grim, “Cathy, I am afraid
the law firm took on a bad egg of a character. I’m leaving for the
cabin and I want to take you with me” his tone left her no wiggle room.
“Daddy,
what do you mean?” She didn’t want to leave NY now, would she seem
flighty if it was because of a man? Really, were they in danger? “And
whoever is looking for you could find our cabin” for a brilliant
corporate attorney Charles was no devious fugitive.
“It
seems we’ve contracted to do business with a dirty client. Before we
can step out of the obligation I need to make sure you’re safe” She
could hear the stress in his breathing, she worried that he’d have a
heart attack or stroke.
“I
know someone with a much more conservative cabin in Delaware, let me
call him and see if we can have access. Come here, Daddy, now” her
brain spun at the thought that this was the reason for Evan to come into
her life, “Daddy, I love you, be safe while you hurry over”.
Catherine
spun on her heel to get Evan’s telephone number, and then considered he
was on the road with no way to reach him. Peter, she’d call Peter,
perhaps he’d have Evan’s family telephone number to arrange something.
“Peter, Daddy just called me. We have to get away for a while, could you come over?”
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Peter
sat on the end of Catherine’s love seat, arms folded his thumb running
back and forth over his chin, “So you need to disappear for a while?”
“Before
I go to the authorities I need to go underground, Peter, it could be
days before the FBI would get us somewhere safe” Now Charles had begun
pacing behind the drawn curtains of his daughter’s park side high-rise.
“If
you could get in touch with Evan’s family” Catherine’s words seared
thru Peter. Had Evan divulged the family’s home underground in the
Tunnels? Catherine continued before Peter reacted, “Evan said there’s a
cabin in Delaware; if we could get away there we could be safe – they’d
never connect us”. Catherine brought Peter the cordless phone, urging
him to act.
“I’m
afraid it’s not that simple” Peter back pedaled thinking about the chain
of contact he’d go through to contact Below. It would be a phone call
to Henry’s home and then time for a family member to carry the message
down. “Come to my home tonight, we’ll work out something”. Peter held
out both arms to draw the Chandlers together. “Leave your car here,
Charles – we’ll leave in my car now”
They
moved in serious silence, Catherine setting lights on timers, packing
her Mother’s framed photo along with the delicate carved rose that sat
beside her bed. With a sad sweep of the apartment she closed the door
behind her and locked the deadbolt as if that would stop someone intent
on larceny.
= = = = = = = = =
Watching
their backs, Peter drove his precious friends, Charles and Catherine
Chandler silently to his brownstone. The Law Firm’s new obstacle hung
over each of them in a singular way. Fortunate that it was a moonless
night they made hurried steps into their safety and as they settled
around the small kitchen table Peter read the fear and uncertainty in
their eyes.
“It’s best
you both stay here, it will take a bit of time to get the keys to the
cabin” Peter began brewing a pot of decaf while Catherine fidgeted and
Charles scowled.
“Well
I could have waited for Evan if it was going to take time” She threw
her hands up and then composed herself to worry her bottom lip while she
watched her Dad for signs of physical stress.
“Charles,
take my room, I’ll stay in my study I had a daybed put there awhile
back. Catherine, take Susan’s room.” Peter’s mind was working while he
laid out mugs and plated some carrot cake. He watched while Charles
silently traced the pattern of the table cloth. “You’re awfully quiet,
my friend”.
“I’ve come
this far in my career and now that I’ve drawn Catherine into the firm
we get hit with this, I should have suspected that family” his voice was
low and sad.
“Daddy,
you had no idea when you took them on, remember innocent until proven
guilty?” she laid a warm hand over her Father’s and their eyes met as
Peter delivered steaming mugs in front of them.
“Honey,
anything that threatens your safety is bad business” Charles accepted
the mug, doctored it with sugar and cream and watched the steam rise
before he sipped, “When this is over I won’t have the credentials to
load rust at a dirt factory”
= = = = = = = = = = = =
“Henry,
its Peter Alcott” Peter began the call in the privacy of his study once
he knew the Chandlers were making themselves comfortable upstairs. The
two Helpers talked at length, about Catherine’s new relationship with
Evan and whether it was safe for them to make a run to Delaware once
they got the keys to the cabin.
Peter
made cat-light steps upstairs, listening for Charles’ movement, with a
light wrap of his knuckles he reported, “Charles, I’ve had a call from
the hospital, I need to step out. You’re locked in – safe, don’t answer
the phone and stay tight”
Charles
came to the door in trousers and tee shirt, looking quite lost out of
this element of usurping Peter from his own bedroom, “Certainly, Peter,
that’s the difference between our careers. My clients just keep me up
nights, not out nights” They exchanged melancholy expressions and Peter
was out the front door to a Threshold.
= = = = = = = = = = = =
Jacob
Wells curled a lip at the JAMA article’s proposition of a revolutionary
treatment, sometimes he doubted new-fangled medicine, then a rattled of
the pipes announced Peter was approaching and it gave Jacob cause to
rise and shake out the chill in his hip. He readied the tea pot to
share a cup and by the time Peter arrived the two cups sat steaming.
“Peter, the next person I expected to show up was Evan….. Not you. What
brings you down tonight?”
They
exchanged brotherly hugs with a hearty smack on the back and settled in
chairs, “Afraid it isn’t good for friends of mine” Peter paused to let
the steam rise to tickle his nose, “Catherine, the young lady you met at
Evan’s event, she and her Father need sanctuary. Catherine wants to
contact Evan about the cabin in Delaware”
“Sanctuary? The Attorney and his daughter?” Father understood the specter of the question. “What … is … the … issue?”
“Seems
the law firm took on a dirty client, some threats have been made.
Before the Authorities can help they need to take cover.” Peter’s eyes
searched the eclectic chamber, knowing Jacob’s mind would be weighing
the situation, “Catherine thought perhaps she could borrow the keys to
the Delaware cabin.”
“It’s
just so far away and there is no telephone, how would they ensure their
safety?” Jacob was resuming his role of “Father”, thinking of the
mechanics of their exile.
“They
haven’t thought that far, they’re still processing their shock at the
thought of needing to run” Peter stretched out his legs and took a deep
breath; “I wish I hadn’t sold my place now” Peter ran a worried hand
over his face and took a long mouthful of tea.
“Then
the thought of Evan being separated from his new romance” Jacob’s
expression seemed wistful, “His letters tell me he is quite taken with
this Catherine Chandler and their long distance relationship.” They sat
in silence only broken by the sound of Vincent’s arrival.
Vincent
stood at the top of the stair, understanding that Peter and his Father
would sometimes sit and sip tea in total silence. Should he break that
silence to greet his “uncle” Peter? Taking the opportunity for some
friendly conversation after a day of teaching youngsters Vincent took
light steps downward.
“Good
evening, Peter” Vincent’s strong hands pat a soft greeting on his
shoulders as Peter acknowledged Vincent’s greeting with a nod and smile.
The
conversation began with an invitation to tea and progressed to
Vincent’s suggestion. “I’m going below for at least 6 days, perhaps
before I return they could go into protection?” His magnanimous heart
proposed opening his world to include the Chandlers.
“It
certainly would throw Evan and Catherine together” Peter mused,
“Nothing like the solace of a loving shoulder in times of trial” Peter’s
glance danced back and forth between father and son.
“We
could call a vote, it would be an emergency meeting after breakfast
tomorrow” Father, now in full leadership mode searched the corners of
his chamber as if the particulars of that discussion hung like dust
motes in the air. “Perhaps we could wait until lunch and include Evan
in the discussion?” Father directed the question Vincent.
“His
relationship, this new long distance relationship with Catherine”
Vincent’s pronunciation of her name gave him a slight pang he could not
identify; “it would either kill it or cure it.”
Vincent
had perched against the end of an overstuffed chair, his arms folded
over his chest as he considered their romantic possibilities: viewing
the Nameless River, hearing the voices whispering back at them while
they viewed the stars in the water, and perhaps even their kisses stolen
in the dark Tunnel alcoves. Within his heart, Vincent was a romantic
fully understanding what ripe home the Tunnels were for lovers. If only
it were for him.
“Certainly
the Tunnels would be no more rustic than Evan’s cabin” Peter mused as
they deliberated the pros and cons. “Here they can make it to my
Threshold and use the telephone, grab a hot shower”
“You
don’t think they’d enjoy the hot springs?” Father settled back in his
chair, his eyeglasses down on his nose with a twinkle in his eye.
“I
think Charles’ exercise is relegated to the Health Club, but he does
spin a great tale, he could fit right in with us right here” Peter
poured more tea and slid the antique flask out of his breast pocket,
held it up to meet Father’s offered cup and poured a medicinal dose into
each cup. Vincent grinned at the ceremony, this communion of kindred
spirits over tea and brotherhood.
“I’m
going to check in with Winslow, he’s my partner this trip” Vincent
began his exit, “Father, where’s the chronicle for these levels?” He
stretched on tip toe to peruse the stacks for the old style leather
folio.
“Here,
Vincent,” Father offered up the open portfolio and then held on to it,
“Are you sure this is no disturbance for you?” Their eyes met over the
portfolio they both held and their expressions softened with Vincent’s
nod. Then he made his “good-nights” and was gone.
= = = = = = = = = = = = =
“We’ve
sent the Administrative staff on a professional retreat in
Philadelphia” Charles eyed the list on the legal pad before him as he
sipped his coffee, “These women deserve no danger” his shoulders slumped
as he greeted Catherine to the breakfast table.
“Good
morning, Daddy” she hugged his shoulders from behind before she went
for a mug of coffee, “That’s great, has Peter come down yet, he had a
late night” She had focused her concentration on the noises in the home,
the creaks and rumbles of an older home.
“I’m
still young enough to burn the midnight oil, young lady” Peter
announced from the hallway as he buttoned his shirt collar then reached
for a coffee mug, “Who did the honors?” Peter nodded to the coffee pot.
“I
can still make coffee” Charles retorted as they settled around the
small table. The air lay thick with mystery for the Chandlers’ future.
“For
that I thank-you,” Peter swallowed the black coffee thinking of how to
break the news of their safe destination, “Catherine, I spoke to Evan’s
family last night and secured a safe place for you both”
“You
got the cabin? I hear it’s rustic, are you ready to return to your
Scouting days, Daddy?” Catherine’s enthusiasm brightened the breakfast
table gathering.
“Closer
and safer” now Peter had their attention, “Remember Jacob and Mary from
the other evening, Catherine?” When she nodded he continued, “They are
Evan’s Aunt and Uncle you could say –“
“And they have something closer?” Charles folded his hands over the morning paper.
“Beneath our very noses” Peter rested his hands flat on the table to accentuate the statement.
“And safe?” Charles countered.
“Off the maps safe” Peter responded gently.
== = = = = = = = = = = = =
If
it struck either of them odd that Peter suggested athletic shoes to
Catherine she didn’t register it. The fact that Peter had them deposit
their bags in the basement didn’t seem peculiar as the back door gave
them alley access in broad daylight. What had both of the Chandlers
scratching their heads was that Peter locked the basement door so no one
could enter the basement and then led them to a corner where he slid a
pristine work bench aside and unscrewed a small knob on a peculiar door.
“We’re
going underground, really underground” Peter declared, “There’s a row
of large rebar staples down about 5 feet, it’s lit. Charles, you climb
down and I’ll pass the satchels to you, then Catherine and I’ll close up
and be down last”
They
followed directions silently, each of them breathing in the loamy damp
air as Peter did his best to close up his home. They exchanged long
looks at the repetitive tapping and the industrial wire covered electric
lights ahead.
“This
is where we’re heading, to where we call “Below” Peter picked up some
luggage and led the way, “The story I told you at breakfast, about Jacob
and that wife, Margaret, you understand it’s not commonly discussed”
The Chandlers understood discretion and replied in fact.
“Evan
can tell you his story, Catherine, everyone has one here” Peter led
down a hard packed earth path, brick foundations to one side, rail road
ties and scavenged wood on the other side, “Jacob was sited before the
government about his medical findings and was blacklisted. He lost
everything, had he come to me I would have taken him in, but pride does
goeth before the fall” Peter shifted the weight of the baggage and
stopped for Charles to catch his breath.
“I
could have taken him in, but it wouldn’t have been a life, this, what
he did gave so many people a life where they thought they had lost their
dreams”
“How do they
live?” Catherine fought her repulsion for the dark as she saw torches
ahead after twenty minutes of steady walking, “No electricity?” she was
beginning to bristle at the offer of safety underground.
“They
are quite clever; you’ll meet their Thomas Edison, a young man named
Mouse. Don’t encourage him with the gizmos, either of you! God knows
what he’ll try to rig for you!” Now Charles’ eyebrows rose amusingly at
the prospect, Catherine was silent, worrying about the eminent darkness.
= = = = = = = = = = = =
As
much as Vincent needed to be deeper into the Tunnels, he had sent
Winslow off with the preliminary papers and a smaller pack of tools. He
knew the dispositions of those who sought the Tunnels as a refuge; he
had stood back from them – his visage too much for newcomers. Now he
watched the trio make their way around the curve of the rock hewn Tunnel
corner and from a hidden alcove he watched Catherine close her eyes
tightly as if to wish herself somewhere else. When she opened them and
stepped out her jaw dropped at the tableau ahead. The man she had met at
the Book signing, Jacob Wells was standing at a sizable table covered
with charts and stacks of books. He rested on the palm of one hand as
he sorted books to clear a place for his visitors to share the pot of
tea. Once Vincent knew they had been welcomed he stepped double time to
join Winslow.
“Welcome
to my home” Jacob smiled as he grabbed his cane and moved toward his
guests. In the initial moments of their meeting, from another direction,
Mary joined them, sliding chairs toward the table and plating small
muffins with their tea.
“Sorry
your situation has forced you to leave your homes, we hope you find
yourselves safe and comfortable in our world” Mary offered as she
accepted their windbreakers and hung them on the coat tree.
It
was a peaceful accord as the group discussed the society rules of the
world below, “We’ll be sharing our meals here in this room, not that you
aren’t welcome to our dining room, we simply find it easier for most of
our citizens to meet new people gradually and lastly, because of the
natural outcroppings and bodies of waters we would demand that you not
go off on your own. Your chambers are adjacent to the bathes and you’re
welcome to our library and our kitchens” Jacob sat back, his fingers
steepled in his lap.
“Well,
of course not, I mean we wouldn’t go off on our own, frankly Dr. Wells,
I would probably read or I see you play chess” Charles was still
absorbing whether or not he had ingested something from a bottle that
said “drink me”.
“Catherine,
I know Evan expects to be home around dinner time. He doesn’t expect
you here, I didn’t have a chance to get a message to him – you can see
we have no phones” There was a bit of a smile at this.
“I
am looking forward to seeing him” all of a sudden she was demure,
searching for discussion subjects with the “Mayor” of Below.
= = = = = = = = = = =
Her
“chamber”, what they called their living quarters, was the size of her
bedroom. Once Catherine set down her bags she lovingly placed her
Mother’s portrait and her rose on the bed table. She surveyed the riot
of mis-matched furniture from the spindled rocker to the chest at the
foot of the full bed. When she smoothed the handmade quilt she felt the
varied textures of the fabrics lying handsomely under the hand stitching
while the scent of lavender and vanilla rose from the fat pillar
candles on the rock hewn ledges. What had the law firm gotten them into
and where exactly was she?
= = = = = = = = = = =
Charles’
eyes followed the carving on the chest of drawers as he rocked in the
chair next to his small bed. His chamber, a bit further past
Catherine’s was impressive as he had expected something akin to a cave.
He folded his hands, as if to pray and counted his blessings, he hadn’t
been too jaded to make this prayer. His free will had brought him
education and professional standing and his heartaches had always been
in his personal life. Losing a loving wife, raising his daughter alone,
these had been sad moments he had worked so hard to temper with travel
and gifts. Now he sat in literally a hole in the ground assessing his
next steps. “Excuse me, Mr. Chandler” a young voice called from the
hall.
“Yes, child” Charles answered wearily.
“Mary says that we should take you on a tour” The youngster shuffled in clean but well-worn sneakers, “I’m Jeremy”
“Could we do that later, son?” Charles asked as the boy entered the room, “Jeremy, do you go to school?”
With
a quick smile the dark haired boy chuckled, “Yessir, most days. Today
my lessons were independent study and I study quickly” he was 11 or so,
rangy in his cast off clothing, “You would want to know where the
bathroom is, right?” the boy knew basic needs; he had done this before
Charles surmised.
“Alright, son, let’s do this” Charles rose to join the boy and were both off on a small adventure.
= = = = = = = = = =
“Catherine?”
the voice called from a distance, the volume building as Evan drew
closer, “Catherine” Evan had arrived home early and had been surprised
with the news of the Chandlers taking refuge Below. Evan’s quest for
Catherine carried him so quickly he slid to a stop before her standing
in the roughhewn hallway.
“You
didn’t expect to find me here, did you?” Catherine giggled finding a
place in his arms, nestling under his bristly chin as they held each
other. They cuddled finding each other’s warmth yet oddly, that
kiss….their first kiss landed mutely on both their lips.
No
primal energy surged thru their bloodstreams, no open mouths or
inquiring tongues. No quivering in their hearts. It was like cousins
at a family reunion, then just their rocking back and forth within each
other’s arms. As they drew back to capture long looks at each other they
held just each other’s fingertips. Each of them silently assessed each
other as if for the first time.
Now
Catherine could fit all of his idiosyncrasies with his home, the long
hair, the well-worn corduroys frayed at the heel, and the chukka boots
scuffed from miles of tunnel walking, the long hair and beard. His
blue, blue eyes were bright and friendly, that was it, just friendly.
Oddly as they stood there were no embers of hot passion stirring within
either of them.
Evan
stepped back and nodded, she was the last person he ever expected to be
waiting for him in the Tunnel. He gallantly offered his elbow and the
two of them took a long stroll.
Why
hadn’t they torn each other’s clothes off? Why hadn’t their lips
locked, inflamed by weeks of telephone chats baptized with romantic
endearments? Their internal gears, so necessary to get their wheels of
love into a horizontal position never synced. It was never going to
happen for them, even while they stood reading the constellations in the
reflections of the stars.
When
they returned at the dinner hour they weren’t even holding hands.
Surprisingly, Catherine had a mind that this simplification would be one
less issue in what she figured would be a tumultuous season. The last
thing she needed was infatuation to cloud her reasoning.
Their
quiet dinner with Father was just that. William’s posse of kitchen
help carried a large crockery of stew, a basket of rolls and apple
butter and a small cinnamon cake into the room. The static silence
seemed odd to Father as he watched Evan slowly break his bread before
carefully slathering it with apple butter. Chat wasn’t that, it was
carefully meted out words on generic subjects between people just wading
into something of a friendship. The Chandlers assumed “Father” and
Mary weren’t subscribers to the New York Times, although they had
discovered the paper would find its way down within 24-28 hours of its
distribution.
When they plated up the cinnamon cake Father eyed Evan as he sat across from Catherine, where was that romance Father wondered.
After
the dishes had been cleared and the candle glow had been reduced to the
two of them at the table Father motioned for Evan to have a seat, “Tell
me about your travels, Evan”.
With
those few words Evan morphed from a fully functioning adult to a 13
year old boy, he pushed the chair back on two legs and braced his foot
on the table leg, rocking as he thought about the weeks away. “You know I
love my work, nothing like meeting people, talking about poetry, I mean
how lucky am I?” With just a “look” from Father, Evan brought the chair
legs back to the floor.
“How lucky?” Father posed the question back to him, sipping his tea, waiting to hear more about Evan’s travels.
“Well,
you know I hate being alone on the road” Evan’s smile grew pensive,
reflective, “ just about every night I’d call Catherine, just to hear
her voice and Father, I thought it was a beginning for me. We connected
on so many points…. But…. There just wasn’t a spark” Evan hung his
head, romantically defeated again.
“Love
can sometimes be magic” Father leaned into their conversation, “But
magic can sometimes... just be an illusion, was the illusion good while
it lasted?”
Evading
the question Evan countered, “Where did Vincent head off to? Somewhere I
could find him one of these days?” Evan recognized the discipline – new
residents were reserved in a circle while they grew comfortable with
the community, then as their sense of “citizenship” gelled truths were
shared. Vincent was always one of the last truths.
“I know he’ll want to see you” Father smiled at the conversational dance.
“I’ll
bet you were worried about Catherine and I having an incendiary love
fest weren’t you, Father?” Evan’s words were like a confession. “I
thought this was the girl, the ONE, you know? We talked for hours so
many times a week, I could tell you her political views, hell, I’ll bet
you I could tell you how she sorts her kitchen drawers” on that comment
Father’s brows rose.
“And…..” Father opened the door.
“There
was nothing, zip…. I did that long distance run, we caught each other
in our arms and . . . . Bahm, it was like kissing a sister.” Evan threw
his hands up in the air, then caught the length of his hair and tied it
into a ponytail, “and the damndest thing, it doesn’t even hurt. I mean
we chat and she’s good company but you don’t have to worry about us
being a bad example for Jamie and the rest of the gang”
“I
appreciate your concern for Tunnel morality, Evan, I very nearly
expected that you’d be courting her, seriously from your letters” All of
Father’s telltale emotions were bleeding thru, his knitted brows and
cleaning his eyeglasses. Evan felt Father’s deep and true concern,
“Perhaps as you get used to being together the flame might catch?”
“Father,
I appreciate your compassion, I’m not shutting down here, I’m just not
seeing us taking off as Evan and Catherine, happily ever after” Now Evan
had risen and pushed his chair back into the table. “Is Vincent where I
think he is?” and Father nodded. They made their customary good nights
and Evan struck out for a late night visit with his best friend.
= = = = = = = = = = = = =
“You can run, but you can’t hide” Evan joked as he approached Vincent as he dried himself after a swim.
“I
can never hide from you, Evan, welcome, how was your trip?” Vincent
stepped into his trousers then they caught arms and grinned, Vincent
rewarding his return with a fang baring smile. Vincent accepted the
napkin wrapped cake and they sat beside each other as Vincent broke the
large piece into two and they began picking the moist cake to bite size
pieces, “I’m surprised that you aren’t romancing Catherine with some
sweet words, I feel honored.”
The
story was there to tell, Evan measured his words as they ate then
admitted, “I’ve never been one to kiss and tell, fact is, Vincent…..
There is flat out nothing to tell. It’s not love.”
“What
is love, Evan, you’ve made your life recounting the words, writing them
yourself” Vincent offered the canteen of spring water and Evan accepted
it.
“We kissed, there wasn’t a spark, we hugged and there was zilch, sort of a kissing your
sister thru a screen door sort of thing” Evan waited for the metaphor to
register with Vincent and was rewarded with a wry smile and a shake of
his shaggy head.
“The
search continues?” Vincent posed the question, knowing Evan had been
weighing these past month’s telephone conversations as if Catherine was
the one for him.
“I’m
proud to consider her a friend, just Damn, Vincent, why do I have to
have such a ravishing friend?” Evan stretched out on his back to view
the cave ceiling, “Soft in all the right spots, round and strong
and….arghhhhh. Beat me to death now, Vincent I’m destined for
bachelorhood”
Vincent nodded as if he’d comply, “Then it will be the three of us, Devin, you and me keeping company into perpetuity?”
“Did
I tell you I had dinner with that rascal?” Evan sat up to share the
tale of a Mahi-Mahi dinner in Key West, “he’s down there tending bar,
sleeping all day” Then Evan’s voice tapered to a whisper, “He tells the
tourists he was swiped by Pirates between there and Bermuda” as he
pointed to his cheek, referring to Devin’s scarred cheek, “I’m sorry,
Vincent, I didn’t mean to make light of it” Then they watched the motes
of dust in silence, each lost within their hearts.
= = = = = = = = = = = =
The
days stretched into a week and Charles’ own counsel advised he “stay
put”, this could have worn on them except for their temporary forays
into Peter’s brownstone to break their “cabin fever”. Vincent and
Winslow returned the 6th day of their stay and although they
met Winslow, Vincent hung in the shadows of the Tunnels. The heavy
tapestries stayed drawn across his chamber doorway and he took his meals
alone when the Chandlers were below.
Weeks
later when Catherine had escaped her solitude to sit in the bedroom
window seat on the 3rd story, she watched the bounty of thick leaves
turn orange and amber to drop away and she felt her heart crumble too.
Not that she could even say why, she felt hollow and pointless, even
more so than when she occupied a mahogany desk at the law firm. This
would have been the time perhaps for a religious conversion had it
presented itself, yet what was laid before her was more of a societal
transformation.
“Daddy,
what if I offer my talents teaching? That Radcliffe education could be
used for something” her light fingers traced over the spines of the
books in Peter’s library to fall on a thin red book of Shakespeare’s
sonnets.
“We need to
carry our weight in some way” Charles’ lifelong purpose had been
truncated by crime to become a daily chess partner, “they seem to not
want our money, it’s the damndest thing – anywhere else and they’d have
put a bounty on our futures and charged us accordingly” He certainly
didn’t understand them even after living amongst them for these weeks.
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
October 1st Mouse jogged toward the Chandlers as they returned to the Tunnels, “Ok, good to see you, good news just in time”
“Good
news, what type, Mouse?” Charles had a standing 4 O’clock meeting twice
a week to talk about “gizmos”, they had become fast friends.
“Halloween Party, pumpkins, games and most important, COSTUMES” Mouse nearly bounced off the stone walls.
“It’s
been a while for us; Mouse, what would you propose for our costumes?”
Catherine exchanged a grin with Charles and drifted alongside Mouse and
looped a hand into the crook of his elbow. Mouse seemed surprised at
her action yet carried on with his usual enthusiasm led her away to a
large chamber with stacks of sorted clothes and bolts of cast off
fabric.
“Bailey” Mouse
called at the doorway, “Need more costumes!” then he cut out, running
to draw more residents to pick and choose a costume.
Bailey,
a 40’s something woman had escaped a life or exhausting abuse at the
hand of a politician. Not wanting to live in the light of being
someone’s EX, she had made her break when her physician, Dr. Alcott had
brought her into the fold. Her love of fabric and sewing solved an age
old clothing dilemma Below. These days found her playing with dyes and
fabrics for the fall fete of Saowain.
“Do
you sew Catherine?” Bailey asked as she dragged a box of patterns from
the shelf. Bailey’s eyes danced at the thought of the tunnel community
celebrating in costume.
Catherine
laughed and threw he hands up, “Not hardly! Never had a good teacher,
are you a good teacher?” Before Bailey could answer, Evan entered
carrying bags of trimmings from a family owned fabric store.
“More goodies for Romeos and Juliets and Pirates” Then Evan winked at Catherine, “Which one will you be?”
Once
Mouse had played the town crier about the costume party he circled back
to Catherine’s chamber, “Catherine Chandler?” he politely stood outside
her doorway, his back to the door.
“It’s Mouse, right?” She had been reading and wanted to be sure she had remembered his voice, this time low and polite.
“Sure, it’s Mouse” she could hear his shuffling in the echo of the hallway.
“Come
on in, what can I do for you?” Catherine had been ordering small
electronic pieces from a tool catalog and they had struck up an
eccentric rapport.
“Someone
wants to meet you, my friend” Mouse almost removed the book from her
lap to bring her to her feet, “Need hiking shoes and warm gloves, walk
with me”
“Where to, Mouse?” She slid into her sneakers and caught the gloves off the top of the bureau, “We aren’t going up are we?”
“Down,
going down, someone wants to meet you” Now his urgency carried him to
the doorway as if to draw her with him, she could do nothing less than
follow him. He had shown her luminescent lichen and brilliant crystal
formations so this person would undoubtedly be as interesting as his
previous adventures.
“Who
wants to meet me?” She brought the lush, soft scarf around her neck and
set to walk beside him. He demurred telling who, he just babbled about
special stones and herbal concoctions. They walked down steep spiral
staircases until she begged to take five only to have him offer her a
flask of peppermint tea sweet with dark honey and pull her further into
the bowels of the earth.
“She’s
going to come for you here and then I’ll return for you….need to do
something for Vincent….. I’ll be back, promise” and he led her to a slab
of carved stone and nodded for her to sit and wait. Mouse darted back
the way they came while Catherine sat in flinty silence, her fear
growing by the minute as she detected a shuffling sound approaching.
She thought of Minotaurs and giant rats to the extent that she clenched
her eyes shut and pull her feet up to the stone bench.
Then
as the noise built to a crescendo it stopped, suddenly in front of her.
Herbs and oiled scents whirled around her so overtaking her breath that
she removed her hands from her face and covered her mouth and nose. In
that moment Narcissa stood in her sightline and Catherine drew her
hands into defending fists.
A
cackle cracked the dry air and Narcissa pronounced, “Child, you need
not fear me….. ….. You fear the unknown, you fear the criminals
encroaching your father’s business you fear love is elusive and I bring
enlightenment for these fears”
Seeking to melt into the rock wall Catherine shrunk back, “Who are you, how do you know my fears?”
“Oh,
child, we all want to be happy and free from fear, many people here
have learned that the key to happiness is inner peace. You and your
Father have come for sanctuary from violence” Narcissa’s white eyes
gazed over Catherine’s head as her voice entranced the nervous Topsider,
“You have begun the wheels of justice Above to protect you and still
you lay awake at night. What can Narcissa do for you?”
Once
Catherine’s breathing returned to normal, she found herself extending
both her hands to the old woman’s and truth erupted from her lips, “I
came here in love, or what I thought was love. When Evan and I kissed
every notion of romance flew out of our minds. I feel guilty, I feel
sorry – I feel like I led him on”
They
stood connected by their clasped hands and Narcissa meditated for a few
moments, “Child, this was a journey of discovery to gain a friend you
will have for life . . . . . there is no waste, no pain in this
realization” Of course to Catherine it seemed like an oversimplification
of what she and Evan shared.
“In
this time with Father’s community you have breathed easier, shared
smiles because you reflected and contributed to this world. You have
accepted your role and become flexible while you supported your Father
in his strife”
Catherine found herself nodding along with her as those dark gnarled hands massaged her tense fingers.
“You
have made yourself ready, you have lightened you heart and given
thanks. Now, you stand transformed and ready to receive the love of your
heart’s desire” Narcissa’s dark skin shone in the torchlight, in
contrast to her pearl white teeth.
“What?” the force of her disbelief nearly pulled her hands from the sorceress.
“I
will speak more plainly. Catherine” now she took Catherine’s left hand,
“On the night when masks are worn, your true love’s heart will be
unmasked. You will express your true desires and he who is ripe to
fulfill them will make his presence known”, their eyes burned into each
other after the oracle’s ravings. A current transmuted between them and
the tension left the young woman’s body and soul. The aged woman came to
sit beside her guest and she held her across her lap like a child as
they rocked in another sort of trance, Narcissa whispered into her ear
“Child, all gains are the fruit of venturing”.
As
the strumming between them died Mouse’s footfalls approached and
Catherine awoke, she was foggy and momentarily confused yet lucid enough
to nod a good-bye to her new friend and walk along side Mouse the
entire convoluted path.
“Catherine looks happy” Mouse proclaimed as they climbed the circular metal staircase.
“You
know, Mouse, I’m not even sure why, but she’s magical and I feel Daddy
and I are going to be safe and perhaps our time here will be coming to a
close” her steps lightened as they approached the torchlit hallways.
That night she ate little and made her good-nights early, she felt she had too much to dream this night!
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
That next night an old Tunnel Script of Romeo and Juliet lay on her bed when Catherine returned from her dinner. Inside was a pencil sketch and notes on the costume Catherine thought someone had designed for a previous production, then she looked at the “actress” her features were remarkably similar to hers! She fell asleep, the script in her hands.
Three
nights later a small hair comb appeared on her pillow, from the patina
it was vintage, the note said: "O! She doth teach the torches to burn
bright" - William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, 1.5.
“Daddy,
are you doing this?” Catherine called down the hallway, only to hear a
shuffle in the shadows that caused her to jump back into the warm light
of her chamber.
Was it any surprise that October 31st
found Catherine adjusting the conical hat before the antique mirror in
her chamber she figured she could be “Juliet” although she hadn’t heard
of any man being “Romeo”? Bailey had done most of the work on the
empire velveteen dress while she claimed Catherine was a fashion
designer in training. Together they drew and cut the lengths of
discarded draperies. “If it had been green I would feel like Scarlett
O’Hara” Catherine remembered the week she learned to sew. “Cathy” her
Father called from the hallway, “Ready for the Party, Juliet, your Lost
Boy awaits?”
“Daddy,
what fun this is going to be, don’t even think about what’s going on
Above” she grinned the absolving smile of a loving daughter and adjusted
his sash, “The boys are going to love you being the biggest Lost Boy”
“All
of a sudden I have the oddest urge for Peanut Butter” Charles quipped
as they headed toward Father’s Chamber. They heard Father’s breathing
life into the tale of the Headless Horseman and the hesitated before
joining the group.
“Not
knowing that the hill had already been taken by the British. Whatever
the reason, the Headless Horseman continues to roam the roads near
Tarrytown on dark nights from that day to this.” Father closed the book,
although he could have told the tale by heart. “Now, as the adults join
us we’ll prepare for the pumpkin carving and then bobbing for apples”
As
the children hopped up and down to jockey to the front of the line for
cider and a pumpkin Catherine searched the room for a seat and the
costumes and masks amused her. “Who’s your friend, Evan?” Catherine
nodded toward the man in the duplicate costume of his. Catherine was
certain she had never met this tall golden stranger who stood brushing
shoulders in the corner, both in deep blue cropped front military
tailcoats rich with gold braiding. Vincent and Evan posed as bookends,
mirror images of tall, muscular men in knee high polished boots; their
long hair brushed till it shone in the candle light.
“My
good buddy, Vincent, I would like you to meet Catherine and her father,
Charles Chandler” Charles extended a hand and Vincent offered an
elegantly gloved hand. Those gloves were the only difference between
Vincent and Evan’s costumes.
“Vincent,
just Vincent?” she asked and he nodded, “How have we missed you all
this time?” Catherine blushed at the sight of this intriguing gentleman
in the tight white trousers. After months of carrying on what she
thought was a stimulating long distance connection she stood extra tall
as he bent to brush his distinctive lips over her fingertips.
Energy
was too severe a word for what streamed between them. The soft flow of
power crackled at their touch and circulated thru her bloodstream. The
warmth and stimuli nestled between her ribs near her heart and she could
only freeze in that stance, no other movement was possible.
“Great,
Vincent, you always pull that trick out of your pocket and slay the
rest of us guys away” Evan caught Catherine’s elbow and drew her to the
small chaise in the corner. “Don’t mind Vincent, he gets into the
costume” Vincent turned his head, sneaking a bit of a smirk at Evan’s
aside. He had felt it, felt all she had experienced only it settled
within him as a disturbance, why now, why with her?
From
across the room Vincent observed the two of them taking in the next
story with more interest than for each other. Her amusement at the
Gaelic yarns grew with each paragraph and it was as if he could feel her
engrossment. Lost in watching Catherine he jumped at the warm words
Evan whispered into his ear, “The seat’s good and warm, all you have to
do is sit down next to her”.
Vincent
shot Evan his best incredulous air and struggled to slink further into
the shadows, “Seriously, you’ve been watching Catherine since the first
night at the book store” Evan turned his back to the group to perform
his most active expressions for Vincent, “She’s a beautiful woman,
inside and out. You’d be a fool to not enjoy her company” With that
said Vincent scowled at his friend and beat a path to the Commons where
the younger children were carving pumpkins.
Vincent drew his lips together to speak and swallowed the words; he’d be a fool to pursue her.
Evan
grabbed two mugs of cider and worked his way back to the open seat he
left, “What did you say to your friend?” Catherine quietly probed as she
held the mug up to her lips, her eyes on Father and his illustrated
story book.
“He’s off
to carve up pumpkins, he’s a hands on kind of guy” Evan felt bad at the
comment and even worse that Vincent had felt he needed to take flight.
In the Chandler’s time Below Vincent had clung to the shadows admiring
Catherine from afar. She would comment on a bit of a story and the book
would be on her bed table, she would talk about a scent and those
candles would appear on her chamber’s ledge. Evan knew whatever passion
he lacked for Catherine it was quite likely Vincent’s heart burned for
the woman. Evan had hoped to push the two into some Halloween meeting,
if not tonight, when?
Once
Mouse, Jamie and Rebecca rounded up couple of dozen Trick or Treaters
the Tunnels quieted down, leaving the adults to gather in the Commons
for pumpkin donuts and hard cider. “Is that Jacob as Captain Hook?”
Charles murmured to Catherine. Spice scented candles burned in the
candelabra’s distributed on the buffet table laid heavy with platters of
hard cheeses and sausages. Piles of grapes and figs nestled in between
the cutting boards and stacks of mis-matched luncheon plates.
“I
think Mary has quite a sense of humor to dress as Smee, don’t you
think? I mean I’ve never seen her in a pair of trousers, check out those
striped socks!” Catherine lingered over the cauldron of hard cider
looking for Vincent. Music seemed to come from nowhere as the adults
relaxed without their children. Laughter filled the room as it can when
people are relaxed and within their element.
“She
most likely knitted those socks herself, Cathy. I’ve never seen such a
creative woman in my life” Charles had grown to admire her sense of
industry and talents. In the candlelight Catherine had been seeking a
particular pair of those white trousers and knee high black boots,
looking for Vincent’s arrival to the adult party. When she only saw
Evan her heart sunk just a millimeter so she relied on her appetite to
make up for lost entertainment.
Balancing
two plates and a mug of cider she shuffled over the slightly uneven
stone floor in the direction of a fairly ornate chair near a tall
tapestry.
Someone
shouldered a violin and playful hands began wrapping and tapping spoons
in harmony, one of the married couples began a hearty jig their playful
energy drew more and more of the crowd to dancing. Except Catherine,
she sat pinching grapes off of her plate, watching the merriment and
scanning the multitude for Vincent.
Out
of the corner of her eye she caught movement and pulled her feet up to
the rung of the chair in fear of mice. Then in the dark earthen and
stone corner she saw brown booted legs and suede covered thighs extended
from an alcove in the stone wall. Who was this? She stood and craned
her neck to no avail she had to move closer, she felt really desperate
yet she swallowed her curiosity and got closer. It was Vincent.
“You
changed costumes” Catherine burst in surprise. Now he wore a linen
poet’s shirt with an olive suede tunic, his arms crossed over his chest,
his hands tucked into his armpits. Had he blushed at her? She couldn’t
tell through his makeup.
“Ah, yes, pumpkin innards and white trousers are certain disaster” His tone was pleasant if not a bit awkward.
“Do you dance?” she asked as she turned to lean against the wall to gain his perspective of the dance floor.
“Not
like that” he unconsciously raised his hand to the crowd and then
withdrew it back to his side, “My feet don’t connect with my brain until
adrenaline kicks in, I’m sort of a fight or flight individual” he was
digging deep to make conversation, Evan would have been proud. There
was Vincent, the Tunnel Protector nearly shivering at the thought of
intelligent discourse with Catherine.
“I
can’t do that” she nodded to the energetic Irish Jig that Livvy and
Kanin were performing, “They didn’t cover that in Cotillion” she held
out the plate of fruit and cheese, “My eyes were bigger than my
stomach”. He caught the glow of her green eyes and their time stood
still. Vincent accepted the plate to keep his hands still as he felt a
tremor take over.
“I
have done nothing but stuff my gut since I’ve moved down here, there
may not be a hole large enough for me to emerge” Her eyes twinkled at
her self-deprecation and Vincent shook his head in denial.
“You
are a beautiful young woman, too many women are too thin today” his
honesty burned in his blue eyes and she girlishly reached out to pat at
his bicep. Under the linen shirt he was coiled muscle and her palm
melded to his warmth. Momentarily he jerked at her touch and she drew
back as if he were fire, only their eyes were locked, the two of them
isolated with in the crowd.
“See
that?” Evan nodded in their general direction to Father, “I’ve been
trying to get them together all night” to which Father shook his head.
“Really,
Evan, is that wise? Once this hubbub with the Chandlers’ legal
situation blows over they’ll be Topside” The feather on Father’s Pirate
Hat danced to give him almost a comical air. He was more Disney than
bloodthirsty pirate.
“They’ll
always be Helpers, I can tell. Plus, I told you he’s been yearning for
her since he saw her” Evan refilled his mug and swallowed half right
there.
“Yearning…..
Vincent, yearning?” Father’s darkened moustache turned down with his
frown. “Really, Evan?” Then he directed his question to Mary, “Am I
blind? Vincent yearning?”
Mary
traded looks with Evan, regarded the couple across the room and then
pinched Father’s cheek, “Jacob, would you know yearning if it bit you?”
and she slunk off to leave Jacob in Evan’s very complicated hands.
“What was that supposed to mean?” Jacob blanched at Mary’s departure, “Am I the only oblivious person here?”
“Don’t
sweat it, Father; you’re a big picture sort of man and we always come
to you when there’s a joining or a naming ceremony, don’t we?” Evan
patted Father on the shoulder and left him behind the donut tray.
Within
moments of the lively music ending a simple waltz drew the majority of
the adults to step closer to their partners and dreamily circle the
floor. With trepidation, Vincent set down the nearly empty plates and
eyed the dancers. He could barely look Catherine in the eye when he
pushed away from the alcove to stand whisper a husky, “Would you care to
dance?”
When had 5
words sent a shiver like that down her spine? The frisson settled warmly
within her center and her knees nearly went weak before she could raise
her hand to his. Her hand in his she felt small and sheltered,
cherished. Honestly, she couldn’t count the beats of the song or
identify its name once his strong hand settled at the small of her back.
Catherine made careful steps to keep a respectful distance from the
broad belt strapped around his lean waist. She eyed the ornate buckle
as the gate to damnation, one brush along the front of his suede
trousers and she wouldn’t be responsible for her behavior.
Vincent’s
strong arms led her earnestly through the dance and as he read the waves
of excitement rolling off his dance partner heat licked at his iron
self-control. He counted the stanzas left of the song, feeling his
heart thumping out of his chest. When he looked down to check that his
chest wasn’t visibly shuddering their eyes seared into each other. She
was engrossed in the two of them; he could feel it in his bones.
The
dance floor appeared to clear and Vincent used the space to glide a
wider perimeter perhaps to escape the scores of admiring eyes. His
heart filled as he felt his families’ eyes and her admiration within the
music’s glow. Within the maelstrom of tune and emotion he prayed for
the song to end yet for the moment to never end.
The
music ended with applause and their abrupt stop nearly throwing them
into each other. Catherine prayed for more music as Vincent separated
from her and promptly folded his hands behind his back. “Thank you for
the dance, Catherine” And again a few words from Vincent melted her
heart. She adopted the same body language and walked shoulder to
shoulder with him, her sweating hands clasped behind her toward the
cider cauldron.
“Something
hot?” Evan asked as he held up mugs for each of them. At the end of
the table Father rolled his eyes and shook his head as he shuffled off
seeking Mary’s good company.
Evan
turned to swallow his comment and met Charles’ eyes. “Matchmaking,
Evan?” Only a father’s face could wear such an inquisitive expression.
“Why haven’t we met him before tonight?”
= = = = = = = = = = = =
“If
we are very quiet, we won’t be found” Vincent whispered as he slowly
opened the back door to the Book store, the very same door thru which he
had eluded Catherine the night Evan met her. Below a Halloween
gathering was in full swing, she heard Mr. Smyth’s melodious voice
reading from Poe” Murders in the Rue Morgue.
"Coincidences,
in general, are great stumbling blocks in the way of that class of
thinkers who have been educated to know nothing of the theory of
probabilities- that theory to which the most glorious objects of human
research are indebted for the most glorious of illustration."
Conspiratorially
they slunk against the shelves toward the back and a midnight blue
velvet fainting couch. It was only occupied by those who found their
way thru the maze. Vincent had led her up the Tunnel stairs and thru
the back door of the shop, to share the silence and that fainting
couch.
“He’s a
Helper?” Catherine dropped the conical hat onto the table near the
basement door, “I had to take that off, the elastic annoyed my chin” she
craned her neck upward to expose the red line. Vincent swallowed hard
at the otherwise alabaster flesh so ripe for a man’s kisses, “Are you
comfortable in all that?” her hand gestured at his “costume”.
“As
best as one can be” he tucked his chin to hide behind the curtain of
hair, then she followed him as his long strides delivered them to sit on
the length of overstuffed indigo velvet.
Reaching
under the furniture Vincent withdrew a fat candle, a book of matches
and a book of Sonnets. “Now that tells me you have a little hideaway
here”
The squeals of
the audience gave Catherine a start then the settled, watching Vincent’s
graceful setting the candle into the holder on the petite round table
and the dance of the match flame as it roared to light. She felt he had
plucked a string in her spine as he touched the flame to the candle and
seemed to inhale its warmth as fuel.
His
voice broke the spell, “Would you like to share a book?” He set himself
at the opposite end of the couch, one foot on the floor and his right
knee ahead of him to keep her at bay. His features softened in the
golden light, the glint of the individual hairs down his nose caught
Catherine’s attention. She admired the exotic geometry of his masque
and wondered how he had fit the pieces around his eyes. Those cerulean
blue eyes could have been contacts, but she doubted that. Catherine
shrugged in agreement, ambivalent to their activity, just enjoying the
peace between them.
He
posed the question, “What did you have in mind?” She pushed back into
sumptuous upholstery and drew one knee up in the thought perhaps their
knees would “kiss” in their sitting there.
“My
choice?” Should she choose funny, romantic, fiction, non-fiction?
Anything she chose would have some implication of meaning, how could she
make a choice? “Could we just chat? I mean we’ve just met”
Or
so she thought, as Vincent had watched her from afar from the day he
returned from the depths of Below. For a scant moment Vincent recalled
the first moment he had seen her in his world, as she sat with her knees
under her chin in the Whispering Gallery. Her finger drew shapes in
the sand then she’d oblique them with a swipe of her palm, frown and
begin again. Vincent had watched her for 30 minutes or so while silent
tears ran down her face. That night at Vincent’s suggestion Father had
proposed and impromptu Music recital where Vincent hung in the shadows
of Father’s chamber to watch her smile, Vincent loved to see her smile.
“Capital
idea” He braced himself for a game of 20 questions Vincent mused
humorously as he prepared for the worst, “Me first?” He seemed to beg.
“For the question or to ask the question?” Catherine bent forward in interest.
“To ask the question” Vincent was emphatic, nearly insistent.
“Sure, shoot” Catherine settled back and her knee slid a fraction of an inch toward his.
“Oatmeal or Chocolate Chip?” Vincent managed the question without a smile.
“Chocolate
chip, what about you?” she grinned at the thought of cold milk and a
stack of freshly baked cookies, something she had learned to enjoy since
being Below.
“Oatmeal,
with raisins” he nodded as if they were before them, ready for the
eating, “Was that your question?” he secretly hoped.
“Sure” and she nodded for him to ask another question.
Vincent
swallowed a lungful of air and let out a throaty whisper, “If you could
be anywhere, doing anything right now, where or what would it be?”
“That’s
unfair. . . . . . It’s as if you don’t think I’m enjoying being here”
Now she parked her chin on her palm and waited for his answer.
Vincent grimaced and her response and rephrased it, “Well, I would mean tomorrow or a month from now”
“I
would love to be. . . . . . . .On a boat, somewhere warm with maybe
four of us, you know two couples. Snorkeling, fishing, drinking good
wine and cooking on the beach” He could feel the warmth in her voice,
the roll of the ocean in her mood.
“You’ve
done this before?” Vincent choked on the question, wishing to be that
man sharing the sun’s warmth with her on the deck of a boat pitching and
rolling with the waves.
“Is
that question 3?” she girlishly giggled as she began to pull hairpins
out of her French twist, honey colored strands fell into loose curls
around her neck.
“Of
course” Vincent nodded as he stared into the dark shelves aside then
slid his back against the chaise, leaving her with a profile view, his
long legs straight out, booted ankles crossed.
“Well my question before your 3rd
question is, what animal best represents you and why?” With Catherine’s
question his faced snapped to her half in shame, half in torment,
“Well, your mask, the lion, it must mean a great deal to you. People use
Halloween to express their personalities, a lion, well it’s a symbol of
power and strength and respect.” Catherine seemed flummoxed by his
sudden movement, her words sought to assuage any perceived verbal
assault.
Vincent
settled back in his seat, facing her, his head slightly bowed, “Yes,
it’s an expression of that, you could say that” Pulling up to look in
her eyes his brow arched and an awkward apprehension infiltrated her
curious heart as he spoke, “To see a lion in your dream, symbolizes
great strength, aggression and power. You’ll overcome your emotions or
difficulties. As king of the jungle, the lion also represents royalty,
leadership, pride and dominion. To dream that you are attacked by a lion
indicates that you have many obstacles to overcome. You must resist the
force that is driving you to self-destruction”
“Do
you dream of lions, Vincent?” Her voice barely past a whisper she
watched his eyes close slowly then reopen to face Catherine, her
shoulders rose and she backpedalled, “I asked two questions again, you
don’t have to answer that one”
Vincent
pursed his lips as he thought about his dreams, those past few weeks
that had become a multitude of nights dreaming of Catherine. The nightly
reveries had begun innocently, pleasant dreams of their sharing a book,
a meal, and long walks between the natural wonders he had grown up
around. He believed they were imaginings as for each endearment he
whispered to her, Catherine poetically repaid him. Where else but a
dream could any woman love him?
“No,
Catherine, I don’t dream of lions” then after a beat he inquired, “What
do you consider to be your most life changing experience?” Once he
managed those words out he raised his knee and crossed his arms on the
knee as if to disappear behind his shirt’s full sleeves.
“Wow,
that’s quite a question…. I’m going to need a minute on that one”
Catherine examined the space vacated by his thigh and her finger fell to
make lazy circles in the velvet nap. Her head rose slowly and she
began, “probably all this” her hands circled in the air, “having to run
for our lives. . . . . .Certainly has caused me to examine my life’s
purpose” She clasped her hands as if in prayer and shook her head as if
to dispel the reality, “I should be helping with more here while this
community hides us, God, I feel so spoiled”
And in his heart it was his greatest desire to truly spoil her, yet how would he spoil a woman from Above?
“How do you spoil someone such as yourself?” his thoughts crossed his lips unconsciously.
“AHHHH,
it was my turn, Vincent!” Catherine extended a hand unconsciously and
he bristled at the contact, she released the light touch and they each
settled to their corners, “Where would you be, if you could anywhere?
You know other than here” she emphasized those past five words.
Absent
mindedly his tongue darted to moisten his lips and Catherine’s
breathing hitched, he opened his mouth to speak and all his “filters”
fell away, “In the fiery sunset to walk on a shore, the waves crashing
at my bare feet, enjoy ice cream, and swim in the pounding surf at dawn.
And before you ask another question, I’ve never done that” Now he
tucked his chin as if to hide.
“We
could do that, I mean the ice cream, right now” Catherine lurched,
ready to enjoy a night “out”. When the smell of the street washed
pavement comes up sparkling in the streetlight’s gold. “You asked about
what it takes to spoil me” now she settled her slipper clad feet to the
carpeted floor, “to be indulged in something as simple as ice cream”
“Ice
cream?” his gloved hands padded to his pockets, feeling woefully
inadequate, and telephone change wouldn’t buy a scoop of ice cream in
NYC.
“Let me spoil
you” Catherine’s hand flew to a small coin purse tucked within her
décolleté, “A lady always carries “mad money” She grinned and her eyes
doubled the candlelight for Vincent.
Vincent
quoted the lyrics from a song long ago, “And the wind went sighing over
the land, tossing the grasses to and fro, And a rainbow held out its
shining hand, so what could I do but laugh and go?”
Vincent
fell into step behind her as she remembered the song, “Oh, you remember
the movie, FRIENDS, with Elton John’s music? I loved that movie, two
young people falling in love” Yes, indeed, he knew he had already fallen
in love.
As they slid
past the crowd in the bookstore Catherine led the way to the closest
Ice Cream Parlor, once on the street they jostled between costumed
partiers. “Is the game over?” Vincent asked as she was pushed against
his arm.
“Game?” Catherine queried, “Oh, sure but I still have lots of questions for you” she chuckled at her confession as Vincent padded beside her in awe, pursuing to gain the upper in their conversation he asked, “How would a man spoil someone such as you?” Now they strode shoulder to shoulder bobbling against clowns and devils and geisha girls.
“Vincent,
you’re on a tangent!” She smirked and shook her head, only to snap back
to meet the burning vision in those blue, blue eyes, “How would a man
spoil me?” her eyes travelled the gaily lit marquees of stores and
restaurants then she watched the faces of couples walking with arms
linked, couples teasing and kissing on a corner, “I’ve had every shallow
relationship imaginable, I was the right girl for them and each of them
were happy to drop a gift bag from Tiffany’s or dinner at Delmonico’s
then scurry off to a Yankees game or a golf course.”
Vincent processed her feelings as she divulged them; he felt her pain at her realization and at her utterance.
“All
well and good” she nearly winced at her words, “Except I want their
time, I wanted to be lost in conversation” then she threw her arms
around herself, “wrapped in their arms. I would go anywhere if the man I
loved, who loved me spent time with me – anywhere. A man could spoil me
that way!”
At that
declaration Vincent’s heart raced, he laid his gloved hand over his
heart as if to capture it. His mouth ran dry and head grew light while
Catherine’s emerald eyes glistened with the bright lights and the
nuances of tears. As she brought the two of them to stop there on the
corner the urge to wrap her in his defending arms and kiss her loosely
curled hair pounded between his ears, leeched into every vein in his
body and he fought it with every ounce of his being.
“That
isn’t being spoiled, it’s being loved” Vincent’s voice dropped to a
quiet huskiness as his hands drew to fists to keep from wrapping around
this angel incarnate.
“What
is LOVE, Vincent?” the autumn breeze blew her loose hair over her face
and she switched her head to move the hair from her lips, she drew her
fingers thru both sides and pulled it back to reveal her exuberant glow.
“I’ve
read of it, I’ve seen it” then he shook his head, hiding behind a
curtain of copper hair, “I’ve never experienced it . . . . . . . . . . .
Reciprocated”
“Vincent,
no……. never?” Catherine’s brows peaked at the thought, she understood
his sadness and he felt her process the emptiness, “I can only wish, for
the two of us, that one day we feel the balance and the radiance of
what love is”
Vincent
saw the spectacle of the two of them; he was genuinely feeling on
display even though the throngs of revelers paid them no mind. He
raised his head and zeroed in on the Ice Cream Parlor in the middle of
the next block, “Enough sadness, it’s time to be spoiled, perhaps not to
the fullest extent, but at least two scoops worth”
The
weighty theme of their tête-à-tête seemed to be lifted by waffle cones
full of Strawberry Cheese cake and Cinnamon ice cream for Catherine and
Mint Chocolate Chip and Peanut Butter Cup for Vincent.
“I
don’t eat peanut butter often, it sticks terribly to the roof of my
mouth, yet I love the flavor” Vincent admitted before he evasively
lapped at the cone while he played to be watching the costume parade in a
side street. Of course Catherine’s curiosity was fed be her watching
his reflection, her nosiness mounted as she looked for a “seam” on his
mask as he bit over and over into the waffle cone. For now, she would
simply watch. After he swallowed the last of the cone he modestly
tapped at his lips and returned to Catherine, “Now I feel spoiled”, his
eyes creased with the smile his lips couldn’t bear to form.
“Do we absolutely have to go Below yet?” she begged waif- like in her quietest voice as they left the ice cream parlor.
Vincent
nodded and pursed his lips, and with a change of heart shook his head,
“Men say that in this midnight hour, the disembodied have authority to
ramble as it liketh them, by sorcerer oak and fairy brook, so why not
us?” he dug his gloved hands into his trouser pockets and waited for
Catherine to express an interest in their direction.
“There’s
a concert in the park, some of the darkest classical music, it starts
at 9” Catherine put a foot in that direction and Vincent fell into step
right next to her, following the costumed throng headed that way.
“So”
Catherine drew out the word as they straggled behind the gangs, “being
out for me tonight, I should be afraid perhaps?” She noticed he hadn’t
caught her hand, yet he had extended his elbow for her to loop her hand
into that snug, warm space.
“Another
way to uncover your fears is to find one of your goals, go and
experience it” that was hearty advice for a creature afraid of brushing
against this comely woman, “And, I believe the mob has taken the night
off”
Walking within
their own cadence, his strides purposefully shorter he gathered his
courage to speak while her hand rested on his forearm, she scrutinized a
group of young men dressed in exaggerated pinstripe suits carrying
violin cases, “Who do you think the Mob masquerades as tonight?” she
countered humorously, “I’m not quite sure, now you’ve got me a tad
paranoid” her hand pulled at his elbow and as they halted in mid crowd,
people bumped off of them.
“I
have an excellent notion, we have a culvert below the front row” and
Vincent diverted their steps toward the bookstore back door, thru
torchlit hallways and around to an alcove where Vincent caught a basket
of cushions and quilts and guided Catherine toward one of his
clandestine quarters.
“Oh,
Vincent, our family had seats above for years…." Her voice tapered to
silence as the orchestra began tuning for the opening number.
Furtively, Vincent set the cushions in a wide arch giving her plenty of
space to relax, if he held her close she would feel him tremble at her
touch.
As the first
notes of the Adagio for Strings, Op. 11a as it began with a B flat
played by violins, leading to the lower string’s entrance Vincent sat
back. Watching Catherine’s reaction to the musical tones that were so
full of pathos and cathartic passion that it threatened to bring tears
to Catherine’s eyes. As the eight minutes of emotion played above them
Catherine sunk into her own arms, the edge of her pink tongue caught
between her lips, so still as the piece ended. In the silence the
dramatic tension snapped and she slunk deeper into the cushions
surrounding her.
When
the strains of the next piece began the Baroque meditation sent her
into such a state of relaxation that she drew her knees up under her
chin and shyly blushed as she smoothed her velvet dress around her
ankles.
The concert
was a study of music and sensation driving Catherine through a myriad of
her last months’ emotions. The Medieval, grotesquely macabre Dance of
Death seemed to almost bring a grin to their faces, they nearly giggled
like kids that fought off fear at an afternoon of horror movies.
As
the program progress thru Toccata and Fugue in D Minor they were mostly
mute, Catherine feeding off the music, Vincent experiencing it all thru
the emotion rolling off her. Then as the last tones ended their eyes
drew to each other, her eyes especially heavy with curiosity, “Vincent,
why haven’t we met before tonight? And, and before you answer.. .. ..
We seem to feel comfortable in a particularly connected way.. .. ..
Except you keep your gloves on. . . . . .”
Vincent
swallowed at her words as he seemed to inspect the seam of his glove;
her words seemed to increase his blinking, his long golden eyelashes
catching the random light thru the grate. Her whirlwind of escaping
emotions brought a trill up the light hair up his backbone.
“We haven’t met formally because you keep to yourself. . . . .” she wanted to say more, unsure of the words to use.
“I
am one acquainted with the night, with aloneness” his sullen, deep
voice filled her heart, yet his head never rose to face her.
“Why?”
Catherine’s soft voice implored while she kept within her tiny space.
She watched him slowly draw off his gloves, finger by finger yet before
he slid out of the gloves his head slowly rose, his eyes seeking
absolution.
“Catherine, how would you describe the taste of a peach?” his voice was deep and dry.
“A peach? The taste of a peach? To someone who never had a peach?” now Catherine sat flummoxed.
“Words
would fall short - I could describe the texture or the juice but you
have to actually try it” there he was going back to philosophical
discourse she mused to herself.
“Exactly,
Catherine, when someone tells you about it - is not the same as
actually doing it. It’s like savoring that peach. I can tell you how
soft and supple its skin feels against my lips, how firm and tender it
feels when I sink my teeth into its flesh, how sweet and refreshing its
nectar is as it washes over my tongue. For me it’s a sublime
experience. For you, it’s just voyeurism. You have to find your own
peach and taste it. Only then you know what it’s like to taste a peach”
“Vincent…..what does a peach have to do with you?” her patience was stretching as her curiosity took over.
“What
if there was only one peach in the world… … … how would you know if it
were safe to partake? Could that peach be poison? Or, would it leave a
foul taste in your mouth?”
Vincent
let the gloves slide into his lap as the Arena’s brightest lights from
above dimmed. Now they sat in the intermittent rays of the security
lights thru the storm grate. Catherine watched as Vincent slid under the
broadest scope of the light, she took in the geometry of his face
strong, solemn and resolute. In his lap his hands rested on the leather
gloves, palms up, cupped within each other. The graceful curve of his
strong fur covered fingers ended in thick claws. In the silence of the
culvert she heard the sound of his breathing, a slow and steady rasp
that she recognized as the impetus for his husky, rich voice.
Her
daring mounted as Narcissa’s words returned to her…..“On the night when
masks are worn, your true love’s heart will be unmasked. You will
express your true desires and he who is ripe to fulfill them will make
his presence known. Child, all gains are the fruit of venturing”
encircled her heart and filled her with wonder.
She
shifted to her knees and walked on them across the cushions where she
kneeled before Vincent in the rays of light. She heard his breathing
escalate as her hands sought his hands, “Have you had a visit from
Narcissa?” she lifted his left hand toward the light and ran her fingers
lightly over his calloused palm; she curled his fingers into his palm
to inspect those dangerous claws at rest.
Within each other’s gaze Catherine spoke, “There is no exquisite beauty, without some strangeness in the proportion”
He
fell under the spell of this enchantress as she inspected each of his
hands, gently placing them to rest on the knees of his crossed legs.
Now she rested back on her heels before she took a deep breath and rose
back to her knees where she reached both hands to cup his jaws. The
rush of her love filled his soul and the tilt of her head told him she
was discerning in her inspection. Her eyes bathed him in adoration as
her returning to rest on her heels drew him to lean closer to her. Her
breathing was a siren’s song drawing him to his knees before her, his
hands reaching out to her face.
“A
farmer might teach you about the peach” she whispered breathlessly, her
hands frozen in place as her thumbs feathered over his whiskered chin.
He
husked in a near whisper, “But he can’t experience it for you. Only you
can do it” copying those silken strokes on her strong jaw. In his
sapphire eyes she saw his love in his wholeness, his strength, and his
radiance.
He caught a deep breath and solemnly asked, “How would you like to be spoiled?”
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
Epilogue (or Beginning?)
Within
6 months the two Brownstones to the right of Peter Alcott’s were
purchased by the Author, Evan Winterberg. From the sounds of things,
the renovations are ongoing.
Within
the year the Law Firm of Chandler and Coolidge closed their doors.
Charles Chandler assisted the FBI in the case against his client, DePaul
Gabriel, and was last seen under protection leaving his bank after the
Chandlers liquidated their considerable assets. Mr. Chandler and his
daughter were believed to have left the country.
Within
18 months Evan’s most successful book, a collection of love letters
between a pair of pre-destined lovers, “Between Vincent and Catherine”
was a best seller sold to a major Film Company. They have an actress in
mind for Catherine, but haven’t been able to cast “Vincent”.
Twenty
eight months later, within the candlelit master suite on the top floor
of a Brownstone a satin robed Vincent made gentle steps carrying a
silver tray over to the mahogany four poster bed. As he sat in on the
patchwork velvet coverlet his eyes sought Catherine lounging back on
piles of feather pillows, “Happy Second Anniversary, my Catherine” he
whispered into her ear as he nibbled a gentle kiss and his large hand
slid to cup the gentle swelling of her baby bump.
She
caught his hand for the two of them to enjoy the precious life within
her, and the child responded with a flutter of joyful arms and legs.
Sharing expansive smiles of delight Vincent slid closer alongside his
love to pour the sparkling cider into two flutes and pass Catherine
hers. Vincent caught a wedge of fruit to pass it to her lips, but
before she bit the fresh fruit she giggled gently and winked, “Are
peaches the gift for the second anniversary?”
Drolly,
Vincent shook his head of copper hair, “Of course not” Vincent held up
the sheet and nodded to it, “the gift for the second anniversary is
cotton ….. That’s why we’re in bed”.
= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =
1) A Thing of Beauty, John Keats 1818
A thing of beauty is a joy for ever:
Its lovliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.
Therefore, on every morrow, are we wreathing
A flowery band to bind us to the earth,
Spite of despondence, of the inhuman dearth
Of noble natures, of the gloomy days,
Of all the unhealthy and o'er-darkn'd ways
Made for our searching: yes, in spite of all,
Some shape of beauty moves away the pall
From our dark spirits. Such the sun, the moon,
Trees old and young, sprouting a shady boon
For simple sheep; and such are daffodils
With the green world they live in; and clear rills
That for themselves a cooling covert make
'Gainst the hot season; the mid-forest brake,
Rich with a sprinkling of fair musk-rose blooms:
And such too is the grandeur of the dooms
We have imagined for the mighty dead;
An endless fountain of immortal drink,
Pouring unto us from the heaven's brink.
2/The Blood of Cu Chulainn
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